Confession: I am hyperaware and hardly ever feel safe. I have sent my husband to investigate a noise in the middle of the night... and then sent him to check every room before we go back to sleep. I feel better sleeping when our obnoxiously-bright front light is on. I wish we had a security system. I'm glad I don't have long hair as I've read that rapists target women who do. I lock the door, even when it's daylight and even when I'll only be alone for a few minutes. Taking a self-defense class is on my 2014 bucket list rollover.
I wouldn't consider myself a person dominated by fear. I just expect that the worst can happen to me. And I believe that the world is evil.
When taking some extensive personality tests, I found this question over and over: Do you think everyone is out for their own good and would harm others to get ahead? Yes. I do.
Is that wrong? Probably not, in measure. And neither are all of the confessions I began with. Self-defense classes are great, as are many other defenses we can put around us. The problem comes when I trust in that lightbulb more than in my Watchman.
Unless the Lord watches over the city, the guards stand watch in vain. Psalm 127:1bHow much power we give our "hedges"... and seriously, a hedge is not a great line of defense! How much credit we give our bankroll.
In vain you rise up early and stay up late, toiling for food to eat... Psalm 127:2aAnybody? [Enter emoticon with funny-looking lady, dressed in a pink shirt with her hand in the air.]
For he grants sleep to those he loves. Psalm 127:2bI realized the other night that I've been sleeping well, not hyper-vigilant. By golly, my prayers worked! Yes, I can trust in my Shepherd, come what may.